Obsessed

We're obsessed. She is just more amazing everyday. I am just so grateful that she is here.

This time last year I decided I would concentrate on the miracle that was Christ's birth. I thought a lot about miracles and asked myself if they really happened today. Of course they do, but the really tough question was did I believe that I deserved a miracle in my life. Did I believe a miracle could really happen in my life. Wondering everyday if we would have children was so hard. After nearly 6 years that was the hardest question I could ask myself.

I'm not sure when, but one night I couldn't sleep and stayed up and just thought about it for hours. The love I felt from Heavenly Father was overwhelming. We mattered, I mattered to our Heavenly Father. How I felt mattered. I was worthy of a miracle, we all are. It was almost too much, too hard to admit that to myself.

We got a miracle. I still can hardly believe it. It seems like a dream. It's completely amazing to hold Abbey, to hold an answer to so many prayers, our miracle.

So this year I reflect again on the miracle of the birth of Christ. I have a new respect for Mary and Joseph, what they experienced. I can't imagine with all the conveniences we have what it was like for them. I'm so grateful for their willingness and dedication in raising the Son of God. I'm so grateful for our Savior and what he has done for us. I'm grateful for the atonement in my life. Not only can we repent and be forgiven, but our burdens can be lighter. He has done so much for us, I hope we can remember Him this season and believe in miracles today.

Merry Christmas :)